fucked

i know i m always screwed in my life but this does not means everything has to make me explode i got super headache and some bad vibes, i am sick but also i am lacking of strength to argue or to fight already.. its getting more and more tired yes change my mind or thinking yes change but its is always easier said than done its sad when life mock you or play around with you its sad when people around you are always stabbing you more than people around you helping you i have always thought people should help friend are always there when you need them the most they can be the people you rely on and not stab each other around then what is even the point of making friends?! might as well stab people in the back all you want without being friend... getting dirt from someone else its never good~its all backstabbing job wont you feel tired? why does life have to be so sad when all things can change if people put in abit more afford and help the world to make it even better?! relationship are suppose to help and build each other up not destory or kill each other i am just getting more and more tired everyday about this~ its sucks feeling like this i dont want to be so weird i dont wan to be so left out and i wanna free myself this is getting more and more tired~~~~~ i just need someone to help me